I dream vividly.
Almost nightly I have dreams that are so real and that are memorable in the wake of the mornings. Often several a night. And even more often, recurring dreams. Most popular:
#1: Tornadoes. Huge, sometimes multiple, always coming right towards me.
#2: I am in high school and forget my locker combination. I try and try, but can never remember it.
#3: I am in college and it is finals week. I have final exams and realize I haven't been going to one of my classes all semester!
Hmmm...perhaps my dream-life plays into why I have stress at times?
Last night, I had a dream about being in Africa. Colin and I were there to talk to a family that was considering giving up their child for adoption to us. I remember running and running. Almost feeling a need to escape. And we had to climb a rocky wall. Looking up at the wall that appeared to be hanging over my head, I thought, 'I can't do this. It's over my head. Way too steep. I'm not strong enough. I don't know how I could possibly climb to the top.' But, I kept climbing from point to point, and little by little, I got over my fears and conquered the wall.
Could this be any more metaphorical?
In relation to adoption, there are so many emotions. So many fears. Financial. Of parenting. Of a loooong process. Of providing. Of loss for the birthmother and family. Of travel. Of change.
But the blessings and hopes well outweigh the fears. And, it is not so much about scale, but rather, trust. Trust that God has a perfect plan in place. Trust that God will guide our steps. Trust that God will provide the strength for us.
"May the God of endurance and encouragement
grant you to live in such harmony with one another,
in accord with Christ Jesus,
that together you may with one voice
glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ."
P.S. I also dreamt last night that Aaron Rodgers (Green Bay Packers quarterback) went to my church.