“We are not necessarily doubting that God will do the best for us; we are wondering how painful the best will turn out to be.” - C.S. Lewis
Some days are more difficult than others. Some days the pain is just a glimmer of thought as I am dancing through life's highs and lows. But God protects me. He is my Friend. He is my Strength.
Sometimes I feel the closest to Him through song.
"Cause what if Your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
And what if a thousand sleepless nights
Are what it takes to know You’re near
What if my greatest disappointments
Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
And what if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are Your mercies in disguise"
~Blessings by Laura Story
"We pour out our miseries
God just hears a melody
Beautiful, the mess we are
The honest cries of breaking hearts
Are better than a Hallelujah"
~Better Than a Hallelujah by Amy Grant
"He is jealous for me
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree
Bending beneath the weight of his wind and mercy
When all of a sudden
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
And I realize just how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are for me"
~How He Loves by David Crowder Band
"When the waves are taking you under
Hold on just a little bit longer
He knows that this is gonna make you stronger, stronger
The pain ain't gonna last forever
In time it's gonna get better
This is gonna make you stronger"
~Stronger by Mandisa
I heart music. It relaxes me. It consumes me. It brings me closer to the God who made me.
I find the most meaning and deliverance through Christian music. But I have been all over the map with music I love. I grew up on 90s country (and still enjoy a good Zac Brown Band or Sugarland tune), converted to teen pop, then I had a phase of heavy rock, and college brought me all over the map with classical music, jazz, folk, oldies, and world music. Now I really enjoy the best of all there is out there. Music is my refuge.
Do you have any songs that you draw strength from or you feel were written for your circumstances?
I have plenty more. Trust me. Whenever Colin and I are driving somewhere together, pretty much like every other song I exclaim, "This is one of my favorites, Colin!"
And I turn the radio up just a little bit more.