my 2013 word, PRAY

it is 2013. january 1st.

 

i like it. it has a good ring.

 

2012 was a nice year. in 2012, we solidified our God-called decision to adopt from Ethiopia. we began the process in May. we joined the waitlist in November.

 

 

we wait.

 

 

and I fear how many different years we may be waiting. 2012. 2013. 2014. maybe more.

 

but if I focus just on the waiting, all I have is emptiness. and that is not of God. i want to fill the emptiness with God.

 

i have chosen the word PRAY to be my focus word for 2013.

 

i pray daily with Colin. but I want to pray. not just rattle off my mundane list. not just once a day. not just to an unknown God.

 

i want to know God.

i want to walk with God.

i want to listen to God. not just talk, talk, talk.

i want to obey God.

 

this year I am reading the 365 day devotional Jesus Calling, per many positive feedbacks of dear friends. january 1st reads:

 

Come to me with a teachable spirit, eager to be changed. A close walk with Me is a life of continual newness. Do not cling to old ways as you step into a new year. Instead, seek My Face with an open mind, knowing that your journey with Me involves being transformed by the renewing of your mind. As you focus your thoughts on Me, be aware that I am fully attentive to you. I see you with a steady eye, because My attention span is infinite. I know and understand you completely; My thoughts embrace you in everlasting Love. I also know the plans I have for you: plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Give yourself fully to this adventure of increasing attentiveness to My Presence.