I dream vividly.
Almost nightly I have dreams that are so real and that are memorable in the wake of the mornings. Often several a night. And even more often, recurring dreams. Most popular:
#1: Tornadoes. Huge, sometimes multiple, always coming right towards me.
#2: I am in high school and forget my locker combination. I try and try, but can never remember it.
#3: I am in college and it is finals week. I have final exams and realize I haven't been going to one of my classes all semester!
Hmmm...perhaps my dream-life plays into why I have stress at times?
Last night, I had a dream about being in Africa. Colin and I were there to talk to a family that was considering giving up their child for adoption to us. I remember running and running. Almost feeling a need to escape. And we had to climb a rocky wall. Looking up at the wall that appeared to be hanging over my head, I thought, 'I can't do this. It's over my head. Way too steep. I'm not strong enough. I don't know how I could possibly climb to the top.' But, I kept climbing from point to point, and little by little, I got over my fears and conquered the wall.
Could this be any more metaphorical?
In relation to adoption, there are so many emotions. So many fears. Financial. Of parenting. Of a loooong process. Of providing. Of loss for the birthmother and family. Of travel. Of change.
But the blessings and hopes well outweigh the fears. And, it is not so much about scale, but rather, trust. Trust that God has a perfect plan in place. Trust that God will guide our steps. Trust that God will provide the strength for us.
"May the God of endurance and encouragement
grant you to live in such harmony with one another,
in accord with Christ Jesus,
that together you may with one voice
glorify the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ."
~Romans 15:5-6
P.S. I also dreamt last night that Aaron Rodgers (Green Bay Packers quarterback) went to my church.
I definitely think that stress/worry can carry over into our dreams.
ReplyDeleteAnd fears are normal with any big life change, no matter how far away that might be. Cling to Lord, let him direct and guide you, and he'll give you the peace that passes all understanding!
Praying for more peaceful sleep ;)
Wow, that's a powerful dream! I'm sure it was scary, but it's pretty cool when a dream is realistic, isn't it?
ReplyDeleteHope you get better sleep tonight! :D
I think dreams can tell us so much and I hope that you will be able to overcome all the obstacles that come up to get to Africa for your baby. :)
ReplyDeleteI hear you on the vivid dreams! Mine always seem to be scary though! I ave a similar one to yours about school and having a paper due I haven't even started, lol.
ReplyDeleteStay faithful and God will guide you to where you need to be. It is perfectly normal to have fears. You have big life changing events coming up! You have the right attitude and faith!
ReplyDeleteI have vivid dreams too ... about high school, about work, and other weird stuff. Oh, and also alot about my first job as a fast food worker. Crazy! :-)
ReplyDeleteI totally hear you on the adoption fears! Its scary to not know where God's leading us, but its always better than we imagine! ... or dream! :-)